the wallet! :D


well, today went orchard.. supposed to go with limayx de.. dan she wanna do her homework and somemore she wan to let mi and him together so in the end she nv go. but hor.. she nv go.. dan in the end he sth crop up.. so ended up i out with fenfen.. lolx.. we went to far east cuz.. hehe.. =P yepx.. and i accomplised my mission for the day! haha.. =P


went heeren.. dan i saw vanessa came out of flash n splash!! haha.. so qiao sia~ dan after our usual hello and hugging, we went seperate ways.. went to the annex there.. i think tt is wat it is called bahx.. well, shopped the whole level.. dan to my surprise, i saw yufen! haha.. dan told her tt vanessa in the building.. lolx.. okie.. went up 1 level.. the 5th level where they got the take neoprints there.. dan received a call from vanessa.. lolx.. she wanna take pix.. cuz kat & diana went out together and took the pic mahx.. so she wanna make it look as if we went out together.. haha.. yepx.. the pic was nice but there was some conflicts or wat lor.. haha.. cuz the machine lah! but was veri nice.. haha.. =D anywae, went home after tt cuz was ard 6+ le.. lolx..


hMm.. the trip back home alone was kinda lonely without him.. but.. lucki got my discman.. but dan my discman sth wrong de.. listen halfway can off itself de!! >.< wonder wat's wrong sia~ =(



the one where my body gone.. lolx! =P



the pix tt me and fenfen took today.. =)



one of the nice pic tt me and vanessa took.. =D nice?

SwEeEeTt!! =P


today.. went to help out parents in the morning.. dan went for training after tt.. hRm.. dan cuz had a lil misunderstanding/conflict with mainly limay & da eeling, dan i was realli sad.. cuz.. was kinda hurt by what they say.. so.. i cried.. hRm.. called up kat.. dan cried over the phone.. ok lor.. maybe it was tt i was too sensitvie or wat bahx...? haix.. nvm.. guess i was in the wrong bahx.. anywae, I'm better since training started and we had to play the game.. and yea.. i'm better..


training did the usual stuff.. had to gun di today.. and i realli think i did badly today.. but anywae, lala~ dan had the 'piggies for sale' again.. and guess wat? for the first round of match, the team i was in WON! haha.. so happi.. =D hRm.. dan wat? played candles in sch after training.. haha.. :D was realli nice! =D dan played and took a lot of pix.. haha.. nice nice! :D here is one of the pic i took! =D





anywae, he accompanied me home as usual.. but! he told me he wanna gibe mi sth.. handed me the present.. i veri stupid lahx.. i go shake the box.. lolx.. dan i couldn't figure out wat the present was.. opened it.. *omg* i saw the necklace tt i said i like when i was in TM tt time?? *aw* was realli touched.. i din expect him to noe bout tt lor.. dan he say actualli wanna wait till the 4th but.. he scared lost.. but.. hMm.. shocked okie? lolx.. dun wan to continue le.. later c me cannot stop.. LOLX! =P



who is this? lolx! :p

disastrous!! >.<


wow~ now is 12am le! haha.. =D anywae, initially wanna go sentosa find limay they all de.. but dan raining... so.. in the end din go.. went Far East with fenfen instead.. =) okie.. this time I really shopped! nearli went into all the shops with fenfen.. but dan.. our main purpose was to find the shop to take pictures.. lolx.. dan hor.. haix.. all i can say bout the pix tt was taken was.. DISASTROUS! haha.. and tt fenfen kept luffing and luffing.. and hor.. i think i shld be the one crying cuz.. got 1 of the pic.. my body GONE! >.< lolx.. will upload the pic when i scan it in my lap... lolx.. funni sia~ anywae, i saw a wallet! hMm.. kinda like it.. oh man! i'm so gonna get it the nx time i go back there.. provided i got enuff money.. lolx! but.. dunno leh.. maybe other ppl will find it nt nice? nvm.. i like can le!! and anywae fenfen oso agreed tt it was nice.. haha.. =D


went Lucky Plaza to have our lunch together with elwin after he joined us at ard 1+ hMm.. after which we walk to PS.. wanna go find cherilyn and joulbert de.. but in the end when we reach there, we couldn't find them lor.. lol.. =D but! i played with the children's toy.. erm.. they were supposed to be meant for kiddies whu are... let's c... ard max to 3yrs old? =P and there is this particular Barney toy.. it sings and moves! it's juz so cute although onli got 2 actions.. lolx! =D


oh yea! when we were still in sch.. saw looi.. wah~ he veri funni.. sat with us and chatted.. we were suan-ing each other lor.. and hor.. haha! juz kept luffing man! u have to be there to noe how funni he is! lolx.. =D


okie.. i think i betta go slp earli le.. lolx.. nitez everyone.. ;)

the fishball.. -.-"


arlow... everyone!! haha.. yepx.. i'm back.. anyone misses me? haha.. sure got no one.. but even if no one misses me, life still has to go on.. ;) let's c... basically, i got nth much to update? juz tt.. been goin to help out my parents during the weekdays.. haha.. so dun realli have much freedom myself.. =P anywae, guess where am i now?? haha.. me in sch wor~ with hu? with my beloved fenfen.. lolx! she made mi wait for her today in the morning okie? bad gurl.. lolx.. anywae, today got a mixed sentosa outing wor~ gonna be so mcuh fun.. but mi nt goin.. =( sad sad.. well, fenfen allowed me to eat her fishball... and guess wat? i stuff the 1 big fishball into my mouth.. =X wah~ dan i have to cover my mouth to eat.. cuz big. wanna break it into little pieces mahx.. haha.. if nt veri unpleasant to c.. lolx.. dan tt fen.. make me luff.. so i'm like luffing with my mouth stuffed with fishball & causing me to produce a veri funni and low hahahaha... lolx.. =D anywae... thinking thinking.. lolx.. update agian when i home.. ciao~

saddening


argh! mood sets in.. okie.. i'm gonna be grumbling bahx..


I REALLY REALLY DUN FEEL I BELONGED ANYWHERE.. NOT HERE NOT THERE NOT ANYWHERE!! OR IS IT SUPPOSED TO BE THIS WAY?? I'M AN USELESS PIECE OF JUNK! JUNK I SAY!! JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK JUNK


i feel like crying.. y? i think i realli cannot mentor kiddies cuz i can't even handle myself! how can i handle them? i dunno.. i realli realli dun belong anywhere..

tired, sleepy me..


let's c.. woke up realli earli today okay? dan sth crop up.. so.. hehe.. like tt lor.. dan lai chuang till ard 9+. woke up din c my parents.. keke.. dan watch teebee.. did a lil sms-ing and met up.. as usual, i waited for him at the bus stop.. haha.. =D went to city hall to have our BK late breakfast.. lolx.. =D decided to go there cuz nt much ppl there bahx? haha.. =D dan step into BK, saw sharifah.. haha.. dan chat for a while dan me and him chose our seats. ate le dan walk all the way to orchard... to find my fenfen.. wahahaha.. =P


he din seem well along the way which makes mi kinda worried bout him.. but he kept telling mi he okie.. juz felt warm.. so we stopped over at PS for a while.. after tt continued to walk to orchard.. dan.. hRm.. let's c.. went wisma.. find fen.. chatted with her for a while.. lolx.. dan hor.. he ask mi to try the nike women de polo tee..? but din of cuz.. haha.. dan decided to wait for fenfen till her break. in the meantime, we went to walk ard wisma, cineleisure.. finally she ok le.. decided to go mos burger for our lunch.. help her buy her food.. haha.. eat finish dan went back to wisma.. haha.. dan.. by tt time already ard 4pm le..


he decided to go esplanade.. so.. okie lor.. we walk there.. nt the first time walking anywae.. haha.. dan.. along the way.. i was veri quiet.. haha.. so tired and sleepy lor.. so dun realli wanna talk.. haha.. kept yawning away.. dan asked him can go home instead of esplanade nt.. he said okie.. but was kinda guilty.. cuz he was the one hu wanna go there de lor.. =P


went home.. haha.. hMm.. home.. so nice sia~ lolx.. now online.. ;) chatting... :D haix.. my grandparents they all in my hse sia~ >.< lolx.. sian.. think they might stay over tonite.. so.. WHERE AM I GOIN TO BE SLEEPING AT TODAY?? lolx.. lame.. *b|eah*

ouch.. *sObx* i hurt my finger.. =(


wednesday


went to help my parentz.. hRm.. can say bored sia~ lolx.. but.. haix... anywae, nth realli special happen lor.. normal stuffs.. =)


thursday


went to help my parents in the morning.. helped to work till ard 4:30. tot i can go? but in the end.. haix... my mother told mi tt i can onli go off at 5pm. sian diao lor.. it's like.. haix.. planned le.. dan like tt.. dan so means i have to continue doing mahx.. dan for the same stack of papers which i can print in ard 10mins i took double the time to finish it.. on purpose sia~ cuz no mood.. dan dun wanna rush.. =P


went training after tt.. he met mi at paya lebar first.. dan cuz he deleted a lot of pic from his hp le mahx.. dan i use to play lor.. along the way to sch took a lot of pic.. all is erm... stuffs like grass, drain cover, etc.. haha.. dan after a while later, memory full.. -.-" sad.. i haven take enuff yet!! lolx.. =P dan training played handball first.. after tt was the usual stuff lor.. dan... it was time for.. pigs for sale. again!! >.< it was realli terrible i tell u.. i dun even wanna c their faces when they choosing ppl.. juz kept talking to limay.. dunno how to say lahx.. plyed tt twice.. the second time felt even more worst.. >.< maybe i think too much? but... haix.. can't help thinking tt way lor..


dan go home lor.. haha.. reach my hse there.. dunno y but i kept hitting him.. lolx... hit till his hands red.. but the thing is tt.. it onli gets red and abit itchy.. nt pain lor! lolx.. wahaha.. slept realli late tt day.. think was ard 3am. and hor.. i kept thinking of a lot of things.. somehow, i kept seeing something moving at the corner of my eye.. >.< dan when i walking towards my bed with all the lights switched off, i kept thinking tt a hand will come out and grab my leg.. >.< heard someone talking over the phone last nite when i was chatting with him till ard 3am.. oh man.. i'm realli realli freaking out!! >.< *yikes* luckily i managed to slp..


friday(today)


yepx! today ish a friday.. but it is already saturday when i am writing this entry.. =) anywae, went to help out today lor.. i today go there like no use like tt sia~ lolx.. but anywae, got my long lost pri sch fren, marcus to keep me company huh? haha.. but we oso juz sms cuz i was working outside.. lolx.. =D anywae.. gonna stop here.. wrote too much.. lolx.. oh yea.. 1 impt thing.. me itchy hand lahx.. dan i jia dao my finger... >.< *sObx*


pigs for sale?


hRm.. let's c eh..? last nite my parents went m'sia & my grandparents went home!! yippie!! *OpPpz* okie okie.. enuff of tt.. if nt i will say till dunno how long.. haha!


anyway, today morning woke up, usual routine, dan went off to meet him.. went orchard and boy was it raining over there!! haha.. but cuz he wanna eat his fried wanton at Far East Plaza.. so went there lor.. haha.. ok.. so this time he managed to eat cuz the shop was open.. unlike the previous time when it was closed! lolx.. =D so happily ordered our food.. dan mine hor.. the fish slice like nt cooked throughly like tt.. lolx.. dan so i nv eat the fish slice lor.. dan when pay for the food tt time, the lady came and ask mi y i nv eat the fish.. izzit cuz got the fishy smell.. told her no but cuz it's like nt realli cooked lor.. she dan see the fish dan after tt bought my plate into the kitchen.. wonder wat she wanna do.. lolx! =P after eating went for our quest to search for volleyball cuz he wanna buy 1 to play at home.. finally he bought 1 from World Of Sports. Mizuno wor~ and guess wat? yea.. though it looks nice.. but dan hor.. cost 50 over bucks! lolx.. actualli kinda my fault he buy cuz i was tempting him when i knew he cannot resist the temptations to buy.. *wOoPx* sorrie wor~ haha.. okok.. after tt go find fenfen dan go sch..


training today was alrite... had to 'mop' the floor cuz was raining b4 tt.. =D dan played captain ball.. 15ppl vs 5ppl and yet, we lost.. lolx! =P but... nvm.. =) had a great time.. dan normal stuffs.. played match against ourselves wor~ =D before tt meiwei, angela and bk was the leader.. to choose from all of us..? dan the yr 1s... haix... it's like pigs for sale sia~ dan hRmm.. it's like the better ones they choose.. dan will be left with the nt so gd ones.. haix.. dunno lahx.. the nt so gd ones.. i'm included wor~ okie lor.. sure will feel sad de lor.. but.. it's like tt bahx? maybe i'm juz thinking too much. but.. tt's how i realli feel bahx? imagine knowing tt u are the nt so gd one.. haix.. same with the pig.. the better ones sure will be bought first de mahx! haha.. *feeling abit sad*


went home after training.. ok lor.. was thinking abit bout it.. but.. haix.. =( *dun think* dan think he said 1 wrong thing.. and i kept telling him to get lost.. =X but dan hor.. haix.. i realli dun mean to ask him get lost de mahx.. so of cuz after some time i will smile... lolx.. contradicting myself.. haha..! okok.. dun wanna think so much.. bought Ruffles and Chachos to munch on.. lolx.. =D waiting for the rite chance to munch on! haha.. =D

feeling restricted.. >.<


okay.. the time as i am writing this entry is 12:02pm. aftermoon le wor~ =) today is a monday.. monday supposed to go sch? but hey! i'm at home! y is tt so? cuz.. its the holidays for me!! :D hMm.. okie. holidays started wednesday last week.. i juz forgot to blog down sth so important! lolx.. =P


haix.. holidays is realli boring unless given sth to do? lolx.. it is even more boring when my grandmother is here!! cannot do this cannot do tt.. y did i say so? cuz she is here now!! i wanna sing song oso cannot.. y? cuz disturbing her watch tv... *gRr* i wanna SING! anyway, i realli hope she doesn't stay today.. lolx.. sounds realli bad huh? sorrie wor~ but.. haix.. dunno lahx.. realli cannot stand her.. =P


good news! my parents goin m'sia tonite! woo~ nice nice.. keke.. since small i have always like the feeling of being home with no one to restrict me? *b|eah* but yea.. will miss them if they aren't home for long.. =) anywae, i wun be goin!! haha.. wonder my frenz over at m'sia will miss me mahx...? lolx.. okie okie.. enuff of my crapz.. basically juz tt i can slp later with no one to nag.. provided my grandparents nt staying lah! haha..


it's onli the morning and i have so much things to say.. lolx! guess i'm long winded.. haha.. =P okok.. shall stop here... =]

3 cheers!


hey! this is the second entry for the day.. well, decided to change my blogskin.. haha.. nice mah? hehe.. found it rather sweet bahx? keke.. but dan.. different ppl got different perceptions.. lolx.. bringing in C&C le.. lolx.. anywae, dear went to play pool.. so, i'm left alone to chat with wenjin & limay.. =) anywae, my blog got some probs juz now sia~ dan hor.. heng after redo-ing the whole blog, it has recovered!! lolx.. =D anywae, kinda bored now.. haix.. =( limay! remember wat u say wor~ must admire my blog EVERYDAY! lolx.. *b|eah* okok.. shall stop here... bye bye~




I'm missing him lotz.. >.<

ke lian de ta


okie.. i'm back.. should have blog today cuz while blogging the previous entry i was realli tired.. haha.. struggled my way.. lolx.. =) anywae, its a sunday!! & i'm bored!! >.< think my grandmother cuming later.. hope my mummy will buy doughnut cuz i'm kinda starving. lolx! =P nt tt i nv eat lahx.. but eat le still hungry.. lolx.. anywae.. wa laoz.. limay... ever since she saw tt particular line in my entry, she has been saying it lor.. ok lor.. she say read le veri sweet.. haha.. *shy* i myself oso find it sweet.. *b|eah* anywae, kinda think he veri kelian.. always kena beaten by me.. >.< sorrie wor~ but hey! ta shi teng, ma shi ai.. lolx.. =P duno leh... realli like him alot.. keke.. \(^-^)/


oh... he read my blog last nite.. and.. he told me tt i think too much? to him i'm always the best? but... dunno lahx... sHh...

i'm an insensitive gurlfren


well, lets c.. on FRIDAY, the gurls had training.. dan met him earlier ard 12noon like tt ard my hse here.. dan in the end he ard 12:20pm like tt dan reach.. make me wait.. lolx.. nvm.. =) dan met him le pei him go eat lunch and after that went to Orchard. walk to Cine cuz wanna c got wat show to watch which can fit our time slot b4 goin for training.. couldn't find any suitable ones though.. =) dan we decided to go walk other place.. BUT! guess hu we saw? oh man! we saw BaoKun & gurlfren.. they didn't c us.. they juz walk pass us and took the escalator up. dan i got this crazy idea of following 'em to c wat they gonna do.. dan when we went up the escalator, they came down the escalator!! *yikes* dan cuz i was on the phone with limay at tt time, i was practically shouting over the phone that i saw bk! =P sorrie limay! dan hMm.. went to c fenfen dan went wisma to buy my FAMOUS AMOS! haha.. nice nice.. dan walk to sch all the way from orchard.. was acting cute all the way... =P think elwin buay tahan le.. haha.. dan training was like tt lor.. mostly playing... keke..


haix.. i noe he told me tt he got headache when i met him.. but.. haix.. dan after training i was like saying there is no gentleman cuz all the guys leave the carrying of the vballs back to the container to the gurlz.. >.< can't they juz help? but dan anywae, din care bout scolding when i saw his facial expression change.. he wasn't feeling well.. and i was just so concern bout scolding the guys.. >.< oh manx.. dan on the way home cuz was taking the same train with the gurlz dan din realli talk to him..? dan haix.. i realli felt veri bad lor.. it's like.. he sick dan still accompany me home... din stop him or wat lor.. argh! i'm juz so insensitive rite? me a bad bad gurlfren.. >.< but dan.. i did accompany him wait for bus and restricted him on slping late.. maybe tt's the least i could do.. told him nt to go for the match today if he nt feeling well.. he promised.. =)


today arx? if it wasn't for limay's call i would have overslept sia~ lolx.. dan brush teeth, pack & chiong out of hse.. lolx.. dan i so stupid sia~ go buy 2 bread.. i walk into the first confectionary dan i bought the sugar twist. dan on the way to mrt saw another confectionary dan bought the tau sa bread.. lolx.. lame.. like i can finish like tt.. haha! dan met up with limay dan proceed to sch.. along the way, limay started having stomach problemz... meaning stomach pain.. dan i oso got a bit sia~ lolx.. linda wanna drink sugar cane so accompanied her to buy lor... dan i now dan noe dun have hot sugar cane drink de.. lol! reach sch le dan sat in the canteen with my darling(shiwen), phloy, bk, elwin & alex.. haha! dan after some time saw gary and wenjin come! woOtx! wenjin realli loook like the coffeeshop/hawker center de those coffee uncle.. lolx! =X dan went to take bus.. hMm.. bk bulli linda!! lolx.. reach TP le did the usual stuffs lor.. overall i think the gers and guys performed better today lor.. dunno y.. haha.. maybe nt tt stress le bahx? dan after the match me, da eeling, elwin, limay & eunice went to play ball.. wah~ dan limay veri powderful sia~ play till her sandal spoilt.. lolx! dan she today dunno y kept luffing.. haha! =P went to watch movie after tt @ TM.. of cuz after lunch lah! haha.. watch The Ghost.. lolx.. dan i realli dun dared to watch sia~ =P after the movie on the way out i took cy de bag.. dan stood near the entrance/exit with his bag... but he din noe.. dan he was searching high & low for his bag.. OoOpPpx.. haha.. but in the end he oso noe his bag with me.. hehe.. his expression damn cute.. dan saw a necklace tt was realli nice.. *aw* anyway, wanna say i saw xu zhen rong and the xiao hai bu ben tt small shuai ge.. haha.. onli think is tt they at 2nd floor we were at 1st floor.. dan cuz desmond was looking at us dan i was like looking up so i dunno y juz wave hi lor.. ahha! dan got so excited.. lolx.. anywae, i'm realli slpy sia~ >.< falling asleep soon le.. >.<

i'm a gd ger! *b|eah*


wednesday


hMm.. went out after writing the previous entry. had to go my parents there to help out.. but i told them i wanna go out.. so it was decided that i go help them in the afternoon and i go out ard evening like tt... =) dan he pei mi go my parents there while he go find things to do till ard 5+. hMm.. hai him wait for such a long time.. keke.. dan finally can leave my parents work place le called him.. hu noes he already at the Singapore Post there le.. so fast!! dan rush there lor.. went to mail letters dan go out.. went city hall initialli.. had nasi lemak for dinner.. dan after that wanted to walk to orchard to find my fen fen de.. halfway at ard paradiz center there we went to find his fren.. dan they played pool.. at ard 8:45pm we left the place to continue to orchard. dan hor.. i pissed him off sia~ so sad.. but heng everything is okie now.. =) dan go find fenfen.. after that ard 9:30pm like tt we went home... =) at the mrt station.. he told me the the 3 words.. which was like.. so sweet... haha.. *OpPz*


thursday


well, what can be said leh? earli morning went to help my parents already lor.. cuz the thing tt they are doin needs to be rushed.. dan finally we completed at nite ard 9+pm.. wah.. siao arx! haha.. =P had prata at my hse there ard 10+ dan we waited for so long nv come.. there is this couple who just reach they got it first.. haha.. my mummy bu shuang lor.. dan go the stall and complain! lolx.. me and my father remain seated and kinda smiling.. =P dan finally our prata came.. hMm.. by the time finish eating go home already 11:15+pm le.. so late liaox! dan bathe and go online.. chatted dan go slp.. Zzz


today
and here i am.. blogging in the morning.. woke up.. parents nt in.. so.. I dun have to go help today! but dan today got training.. =) i'm tired.. somehow, my knee is a bit better le.. but dan.. haix.. keke.. got breathing difficulty sia~ how? die le... >.<

for the past few days


hMm.. din get to update for the past 2 days.. think can say i lazy.. kept pushing it to a later date.. anyway, here's wat happen...


monday


tt was the day i had C#.. and guess wat? i managed to do the program!! haha.. of cuz with the help from my frenz lah.. but dan.. i did do it lor! and i am like so damn happie!! =D hRm.. dan lesson ended pretty earli lor.. so me and limay decided to go play ball.. took the ball to the court.. and omg! u can c.. the way we play.. is like so lame lor.. dan.. tio bribed by limay nt to say wat happen.. lolx! no lahx.. nt realli bribe.. =) *zip* haha! dan okok.. after tt went back to container to get our things and went for the IVP @ TP.. wat can I say? we lost.. i think we throw away a lot of pts lor.. hMm.. gurlz.. must stay happy wor~ dun be stress.. =) *sMi|eZz* and yep.. we lost.. =( dan after tt went to bedok with linda, elwin, limay, vincent, alex, wenjin, shiwen, hongchuan, phloy, cheeyeong & gary.. me, linda, elwin and limay decided to go bedok eat cuz linda meeting bf there.. is easier for her mahx.. =) dan went there to eat.. after tt we all went home together.. =)


tuesday


din go sch... haha! i took my holiday 1 day earlier! lolx.. met him first.. dan went to orchard.. haha! actualli wanna go find my fenfen de.. in the end she knock off le..cuz today is juz setting up lor.. lolx! dan met up with her at taka.. went to buy mac de sundae.. lolx! and guess wat?i bought the ice cream shortly i finish my 1 plate of fried rice! can u imagine? lolx.. =P dan after meeting fenfen dan met limay.. lolx.. 1 come 1 go.. haha! dan we went back sch shortly.. hRm.. went to play ball again.. haha! i kept spiking... i think i addicted to it le! dan time for training.. hMm.. i dunno y but ard my kneecap there hor.. veri pain.. when i bend lahx.. dan wah siao.. pain pain.. dan was like a crippled goin home.. lolx! =P


today
hMm.. gonna go out later.. =)

happy cuz got new car


:D guess wat? i got to noe tt we got our new car le wor~ haha.. was realli happy cuz i realli realli like the car.. haha! dan today morning woke up dan went out to eat breakfast.. sat the new car.. wOotx! it's so comfortable sia~ keke.. leather seats... keke.. *b|eah*


anywae, had mac for breakfast.. haha.. erm.. i abit sian of mac breakfast sia~ lolx.. went market after that.. wahahaha.. i got nth to say except.. THE CAR VERY NICE TO SIT!! okok.. now at home.. realli sian sia~ haha.. SIAN! lolx.. okok... waiting for the time to pass by onli.. tml got IVP.. hope we can win tt match! haha... *prays* keke...

what am i to all of you?


oh boy! i was so happy during training last nite.. why is tt so? cuz.. we(me, limay, clarissa, da eeling, linda + meiwei) played a match against junyuan sec de dunno sec 1 or 2(most probably sec 1).. when it was my turn to serve, i couldn't believe it but I managed to SERVE OVER! haha.. was so damn happy lor! =D dan dunno lah.. abit unbelievable sia~ lolx.. oh yea.. the 12 whu were in the ivp had a 'chat'. we managed to clear the misunderstanding.. realli hope it is realli over.. =) last nite talk to my mother bout how i am realli feeling..? and hMm.. i felt better lor.. =) thx mummy! =)


today had to wake up earli to meet linda and limay cuz today had ivp wor~ playing against NUS. anywae, i was late a bit today.. hehe.. heng still managed to meet.. dan ate delifrance at Tampiness Mall when we reach cuz was hungry.. hMm.. today.. the onli day i took 15mins to eat delifrance! lolx.. dan after tt met up with the yr 2s dan went to TP.. did warm ups and dan got ready for the match le.. hMm.. ok lor.. lost the match.. those playing looks unhappy? hMm.. i dunno y lor.. >.< hope everything is fine bahx? dan stayed to watch the boys match.. erm.. ok lor.. think the boys played better dan the previous few match.. went TM de food court to eat.. lolx.. dan after that we went to watch movie.. hMm.. watch Anaconda.. wow~ it was pretty nice.. for me lahx! haha.. dan throughout the match i was pulling and crumpling his polo tee, scolding that bastard guy in the show.. and kinda screaming without opening mouth.. lolx.. =P after the movie.. they went back sch play ball.. which was like.. 7+ 8pm le lor! but i nv go.. dan i nv go he sure oso nv go lor.. >.< dan he accompanied mi home..
on the way.. initially i was alrite.. still the happy me.. but dan when we reach ard lavender tt station.. i changed.. it seems that no one will be listening to me when i speak.. it will juz so happen that when i wanna speak, sure got another ppl speaking.. dan attention will always be to the other person.. anyone but me.. it wasn't the first time.. during the match in the morning oso like tt.. i was talking and talking.. but no one seems to be listening.. y? haix.. maybe cuz wat i am saying are all crapz.. nt worth listening to.. forget it.. dan the same thing happen lor.. no one listening to me.. nt even when i called out to the person.. NO ONE & i realli mean NO ONE heard it.. was it cuz i was soft? i dun realli think so.. i realli realli felt out.. i realli felt forgotten.. i tried to be with them when they were chatting..? but somehow, i will always be the one one.. the out one and the forgotten one.. dan on the train, i realli felt like crying.. ok.. so i did teared a bit.. no one noes... haha.. i really dunno why i teared.. maybe i think too much..


home now.. hMm.. losing my mood le.. while checking email dan saw the photos that aiwee took with kat, diana and zt when they went sentosa.. hMm.. maybe i think too much.. but.. how come i dunno bout it? dun say cuz they in the same sch or watever fuck! cuz.. zt nt in the same sch with them.. i dunno.. i realli feel that i dun belong anywhere.. i really feel i got no fren... haix...


i am realli baffled. sometimes i realli wonder whether ppl take me as a fren. when u say best frenz, plz make sure u mean it.. it feels bad to be leftout.. left alone.. forgotten.. by someone hu claims to be best frenz with u... >.< i realli dunno what am I to those i considered my fren.. it's like.. i realli got no one.. no one to be there for me.. he was supposed to be the one rite..? but somehow when i run into problems at nite, he would always be slping.. i dunno.. pure coincidence? nt sure.. hack!

it's getting cold in here.. :D


let's c wat can i blog about? haha.. last nite.. kinda buay song with my mummy juz cuz of the library cards and the outstanding fines.. dan think i gave her tt buay song face and tone.. but cannot blame me!! was realli tired.. and wanted to go slp le.. dan she come and say all these.. haix.. a tired person is a angry person.. lolx! =P anyway, teared lor.. dan went to brush my teeth.. treating it as nth happen. i tot i was ok.. onli until i was in my room.. sitting on my bed facing the windows, i started to cry.. it's been some time since i last cried like tt.. maybe i'm letting out all that is hiding inside of me.. i msg him when i was crying and lying down on the bed.. but he din replied. guess he might have slept le.. dan after some time i oso fell asleep.


morning woke up at ard 7:15am.. no one woke me up!! hMm.. dan saw my hp.. got missed call and 1 msg.. both from him.. i must have put my hp on silent last nite tt's y nv hear anything when it ring. he onli saw the msg this morning.. so.. like tt lor.. dan prepared to go out.. today goin alone cuz limay nt goin sch.. haha.. dan hMm.. the train wasn't that packed.. lolx.. sms with him throughout the whole journey to sch..


today class initialli got 13 ppl.. dan in the end was left with 9 ppl, excluding those hu din wan their grades but came. haha.. kinda pathetic.. dan all of us onli did 1 presentation in which everyone was to present 1 slide.. lolx! first time ever sia~ the fac oso gave us snacks to eat.. haha.. nice nice.. i like her man! mentor talk to mi during lunch. wat can i say? maybe cuz there were ppl there or juz that he nv ask till the real issues so i din told him wat i was realli feeling. so in the end i nv say anything.. juz some general stuff.. wOoTz! lesson ended pretty earli. ended at 2pm when the other classes were juz about starting lesson. haha! but oso cuz 3rd meeting started at 12:30pm.. lolx.. =D


now in class.. waiting for the time to pass.. waiting for vball to commence.. dunno y it's getting colder in my class with every mins tt pass.. lolx.. mentoring got meeting le.. finally? lolx.. it's the start of my mentoring career! lolx.. but i need it more dan they need me? so how can i be sure tt i can do a gd job? haix.. but gonna try my veri best nevertheless.. =) *gasp* oh man! forgot to do my RJ for today. haha.. cuz nt gonna be online(most probably) at nite.. gonna have my beauty slp.. it's important okie? haha.. okok.. off to do my RJ le.. =) hope tml can win! ;) jiayou wor~

tupid blog & sweety him


hMm.. i think sth is either veri wrong with my blog or the blog server!! initially i couldn't blog anything!! it juz keeps saying that is publishing.. and guess wat? it keeps staying at 0%! >.< dunno wat is wrong.. haix.. dunno sia~ hope its ok now..


hMm.. today he skip lesson.. went off after UT.. dan he was back at ard 3+ like tt.. dan came to my class to get his bag from me. din see/hear him coming cuz i was napping.. haha! dan fenfen say he was looking at me and dunno luffing/smiling. >.< wah~ dan he tickled me to make me wake up.. dan woke up le he was squatting beside me.. passed mi a plastic bag from HMV.. i was shocked sia~ but dan i was too tired.. too blur after being woken up to realli have any reaction.. haha! =P but was realli happi lor.. =D din expect tt from him.. somehow, i am realli afraid that history will repeat itself.. i had enuff of breakups.. =P dunno sia~ i hope it wun happen.. *b|eah*


he accompanied me home at ard 4+ cuz he say tt his training starts at 6:30pm and he got nth to do in the container/sch.. yepx.. he accompanied mi home.. somehow i felt sth.. felt tt he is realli afraid of..... is it tt i'm thinking too much or tt is a fact? i dunno... =)


i'm tired.. chatted with jason last nite.. realli tired.. chat till morning 2+ and if my phone got no prob he wun even put down the phone.. well, at least nt so earli! lolx.. =D

RP vs ITE


hMm.. think blog is down yesterday! haha.. can't seem to publish my post!! >.<


the day before had training.. erm.. baokun was like nt happi like tt.. the facial expression lahx.. haha.. but dan ok lahx.. dan had to 'fried'(chao) the ball.. wah~ fierce sia~ =D keke.. okok.. dan training ended at ard 9:30 with baokun wanting to talk to us after tt.. hMm.. think when he say he noe us he din realli noe us bahx.. hMm.. dan realli did hurt ppl's feelings lor.. hMm.. bu yao sad le wor~ must prove it to him that we are not what he think!! we are good gers & boys! =D oh yea.. it was realli saddening to c that there is all these internal conflict.. haix.. hope everything can turn out well eventualli.. *prays*


dan yesterday went for the IVP match with RP vs ITE.. hMm.. to me.. i think that the boys did a much better job as compared to the previous match they had with NUS! haha.. but still, there were mistakes.. it is afterall inevitable! ;) though we lost the game to the ITE, i think the guys put up a veri gd fight! ;) keep it up! =D


oh yea! there is this particular guy who keeps badmouthing the RP guys volleyball!! so bad.. dan he so 'nice' say in front of RP ppl.. lolx! dan limay kept shooting back indirectly in a louder voice.. dan i think the guy went to tell his fren bout wat we were saying bout him to his fren hu is behind us.. LOL! dan limay was like saying first time c such a hum ji kia! lolx.. IMPT PT: he is a guy & guys normally would nt do tt! haha.. lolx.. dan they after tt change.. say wat RP veri gd lahx.. dan before they left, they say in a veri sacarstic tone tt RP win le lahx! wa laoz! i noe our vball team is nt as gd as others.. so wat? there sure will be ppl hu are better dan us de mahx! dan they talk so much.. ask them go and play lah! lolx.. dan me and limay was like commenting bout the guy hu badmouth RP.. think his name was Alex!! haha.. *b|eah*


after the match end le me, limay, da eeling and elwin went to the coffeeshop in search of TV! y? cuz we wanna watch the sch beau and sch belle.. haha! managed to catch it! ;)


had C# programming de UT.. i dunno lahx! i think i gonna fail soon le.. haha! now my class got onli 12 ppl! >.< lolx.. initialli was supposed to be 9 ppl de wor~ got improvement okie? haha.. check my RP de mail.. the photo taken during the match was out! haha.. oh man! i saw myself in it and i was like so stupid lor! i c le i was luffing sia~ >.< haha..

moody me changing blog skin


hMm.. mood chages juz like the weather. i dunno how come like tt.. but anywae, to disallow me from thinking anything, i decided to change my blog skin. is it better than the previous? gimme comments.. =) hMm.. waiting for the time to pass.. =( i'm sad? our mentor came to our class.. but.. i dunno.. i dunno anything.. not in the mood anyway.. >.< haix.. hate myself.

IVP


*yawn* veri tired sia~ haha.. anywae, yesterday was the start of IVP.. well, it was an experience for us hu were reserves.. lolx.. went along with them.. dan we got supporters wor~ of cuz is the RP volleyball players lahx! lolx.. hMm.. sch ended early for us.. haha! me and limay together with linda went to container 10 cuz we didn't get our jersey.. no one told us bout when to get or wat lor.. =( but anyway, we got it yesterday.. dan stuff inside the bag dan board the bus which brings us to TP when it is time to leave the sch.. =D


he sat with me in the bus.. dan listen to his mp3.. haha.. =D dan dunno y his face easily red yesterday.. lolx! =P bullied him as usual.. lolx.. dan watch the boys match.. hMm.. nt bad.. nt bad.. but i think they lost quite a lot of pts.. nvm.. jia you for the nx match! =D dan after some time our turn to warm up for the match.. >.<


when the match start, the reserves stood at the back of the court.. pick ball.. lolx! =D dan baokun scary sia~ first put me inside the game.. wah siao lahx! put me in there to block ppl's way? >.< so paiseh.. =( sorry wor~ hai ni men lose the pt.. dan change clarissa in.. think she was gd eh? haha! =D way to go clarissa! dan limay's turn.. she oso nt bad wor~ wah..i think i the worst sia.. haix.. i am so goin to be better the nx time! >.< i hope..


match ended at 8+.. after tt went to eat mac with the rest of the gers.. hMm.. ate le dan we left earlier.. cuz.. for us to reach home which is at the other side of S'pore is like.. more dan 1hr bahx? lolx.. dan in the end we decided to take cab.. drop off elwin aat adams rd.. dan me at jurong east, followed by limay dan linda.. =) on the cab linda turn on her laptop.. we listened to music.. juz cannot resist the temptation of nt singing.. so we sang.. haha! =D the cab driver got kou fu wor~ 3 beauty sing for him.. lolx! =D dan i reach home ard 11pm


home le dan bathe dan online.. chat and did my RJ.. dunno wat to write for RJ so all was rubbish.. think i gonna get a rubbish grade too.. haha! oh yea.. received a sms from jason!! haha.. dan reply him.. and guess wat? he called my hse! haha.. wow~ so long nv chat with him le.. was realli nice talking to him.. misses him wor~ *OpPz* haha.. no lahx.. of cuz still like my bf lahx! haha.. =D but even if he c this he wun be touched.. sad.. lolx.. =D


today de UT.. sian.. dun realli noe how to do though nt veri difficult.. >.< haix.. sad sad.. =( i'm juz plain stupid... >.< hMm.. wondering.. every day go sch sure will c LF de.. lolx.. but ppl waiting for fwen.. haha! now in sch(obvious rite?) doin nth!! tt's y got the time to write such a long winded blog.. lolx! sorrie for boring everyone wor~ haha.. anywae, lastly, hope vincent will be okie.. he veri sad bout yesterday de match.. haix.. jia you wor!~

breaking down


I'M BREAKING DOWN!! I DUNNO WAT IS WRONG WITH ME! i feel like crying now.. nearly teared.. but y? i dunno... >.<

figure myself out!


in sch now.. C# was today's module.. basically alrite lahx.. juz tt dunno how to do onli.. die lor.. haix.. >.< i was supposed to be doin work.. i wanted to do work.. but dan.. haix.. dunno.. my mood change.. dramatic.. >.<


alot goin thru my mind now? tot of how useless i am.. how worthless i am.. how outcasted i am.. haix.. i realli dunno myself.. >.< somehow.. i think i realli need counselling.. joined mentoring. but somehow i felt that I need to be mentored more dan they need ppl to mentor them.. haix.. i felt like crying... but.. to cry in sch without any reason.. no bahx.. maybe juz nt in sch.. >.<


haix.. hope i will be ok later.. i realli realli hope so.. *prays* anywae, later gt ivp.. all the best for the boys and girls team.. =) let's hope everything turns out well... haix.. moodless now lahx...

=)


yesterday 1mth.. went out with him... he took bus to my hse here wor~ =D hMm.. surprisingly it took him only 1/2 hr to reach my here by bus.. lolx.. dan cuz was earlier dan the supposed meeting time, he had to wait downstairs for me while i get ready.. lolx.. =X dan met him...


took train to orchard and oh yea~ at Chinese Garden i saw ivan. said he was goin to the British Council with Alfred and hwee khiam for tuition. dan ok lor.. we went seperate ways.. on the train elwin saw his sec sch fren.. lolx.. but they din call out to each other.. dan so qiao, we alighted at the same station dan finally, his fren called him. lolx! hewas feeling bad cuz he forgot her name.. haha.. but he did remembered it eventualli.. went to cine to watch movie.. catch the 3:10pm slot for The Cinderella Story. hMm.. was nice wor~ =D i teared when hilary duff cried in the movie.. =X after the movie we walked to PS. had Long John Silver.. after eating walk to esplanade. sat there till ard 8pm dan walk to Raffles.. heard the argument between the boat driver and the ticketing uncle.. lolx.. *OpPx* haha..


went home at ard 8:30pm like tt.. hehe.. cuz cannot go home too late.. lolx.. hMm.. wonder y the MRT tt we took so little ppl.. lolx.. dan cuz i was standing by the door.. the 2 seater there got this malay baby ger.. oh man! she was so darn cute! haha.. played with her.. =P cannot bear to leave her when i reach my station.. >.< haha.. dan went home lor.. chatted with him on the phone when he was on the bus cuz think he might be bored bahx? haha..dan till he reach home.. keke.. =)

=D


yesterday nv go sch wor~ haha.. bad gurl huh? haha.. dan met him dan after that go sch for training. well, dunno y this time the training though is doin the same thing but it's like we easier get tired.. lolx.. =P poor stamina.. haha.. he sent me home as usual lor.. =)


well, today i nv go the nyp.. >.< sorrie limay.. cuz initialli i din told her i nv go dan after tt kinda late le dan tell her.. >.< forgive mi wor~ :) and yep.. din go.. cuz anywae was there to watch.. maybe i'm juz plain lazy and tired. >.<


hey hey.. guess wat? today is the first mth wor~ =D i can't imagine tt he actualli remembered it.. keke.. kinda happie.. lolx.. *sHy* haha.. gonna go out later.. =) cya~

lazy bum!


yOz yOz yOz! i'm back once again. anyone missed me? nah! dun think so!! >.< well, was thinking.. I guess i have been becoming more and more lazy. oPpx! let wenjin hit the nail on the head le.. lolx.. nvm.. hehe... but dan was realli abit lazy sia~ dun even feel like goin to sch le.. haha.. but dan the holidays are just around the corner. yippie!! keke..


got wenjin to gibe wake up call.. in the end think he had to call a lot of ppl.. and guess wat? he forgot mine!! >.< so sad.. haix.. well, had UT earli in the morning. went to class and set up my laptop. everything was exceptionally slow.. asked lewis wat happen dan he say cuz of the service pack.. sian.. wa laoz.. dan got into myrp but cannot get into leo.. sian lor! kaoz.. dan had to go IT help desk which was at the library.. reach there saw so many ppl sia~ dan the IT helper when check my laptop dan hor.. siao lah.. i can get into leo le.. lolx! i like wasting the time of the helper sia~ haha.. dan he directed mi to do my UT at the round table.. haha.. dan sat with fenfen cuz her quiz oso got problem.. lolx! dan realli had no mood to do the quiz.. after the quiz waited outside for fen dan went back to class...


today same grp with fen cuz the facilitator disbanded their team.. lolx.. =D happi.. dan joke lor.. oh yea.. was satisfied with myself today. why? cuz i did the ppt.. =D dan somemore i shoot questions at the teams which i normally wouldn't.. haha.. was happy with myself. shld reward myself with sth. lolx! chatted with someone today.. dan erm.. tt person told mi sth.. abit shocked.. haha.. =X


on the way home i cuz of sth dan mood change le.. it was nth realli but dan.. i dunno... >.< someone plz counsel me.. lolx.. went prima to get a waffle b4 i reach home.. saw lingzhen and jieling there.. haha.. say they saw my blog.. hey! must tag me wor~ lolx! anywae, home now... haha.. guess tml i might nt be goin sch le. =) but still gonna be back to training.. =) haix.. reflecting back on myself.. i realli think there is sth wrong with me.. i think i realli need some counselling... >.<

boring dayz


well well.. yet another day. today is the 1st sept.. which means.. today is the official TEACHERS' DAY! lolx... but dan.. celebrations was help yesterday cuz today no sch for them! >.< poly still got sch sia~ =( nvm.. i like.. =D


skipped lesson yesterday juz to go back sch.. dan hor.. sad arx! if i had known earlier will be like tt i dun skipped le.. was kinda boring lor.. it's like.. i reach there they oso nv realli talk.. dan go for wat? somemore all the performance watsoever all finish liao lor.. sian.. everyone go home le... dan we go sch.. sia la.. BoRiNg! after tt went to 400+ there eat.. i went there to drink onli.. lolx.. catch up with them abit.. but more to them bombarding me with questions.. lolx.. =D dan went to clementi to meet him.. cuz too boring le.. i went off with my fren.. she go back NP i go meet him.. lolx.. wah~ to think of it.. my tt fren last time almost same height as me de.. now i c her.. how come suddenly the height difference so visible huh? i mean.. i dunno.. dan she say all along she shorter dan mi de.. ?? got meh? i tot i remmebered a time when she was like higher dan mi abit.. lolx.. anywae, b4 parted off with her i told her 'vq, i like ur height.' lolx.. sounds bad huh? but dan.. haha.. kidding kidding.. =)


met him le dan went somewhere b4 go back sch for training.. reach sch at 5:15pm.. hMm.. dan went to the toilet to meet the rest of the gers and to change.. =) dan had training.. tio hit by the ball in the head.. again.. wah.. dunno y i always tio de.. >.< lolx.. wo gen qiu hao you yuan wor~ dan after my training, waited for him to finish.. wah~ from ard 9pm like tt wait till ard 10pm... >.< haha.. dan went home.. think i made him fedup... OoPpx! >.< sorrie wor~ =D


today children all nv go sch... poly all go sch.. sian sian.. =( nvm la.. say liaox.. i like.. lolx.. went sch alone.. so bored.. nearli fell asleep sia~ now slacking... argh!