dear booked a 1 night stay @ fullerton hotel on sat..
tt's for our 1st yr anni celebration which he couldn't make it on the actual week..
dear bought a bear for charity purpose for me.. :)
cute & it was love at first sight! ^^

went shopping at vivo on sun..
spent nearly $1000 on 2 shoes, 2 bags, 1 top, 1 jeans, 1 belt & 1 luggage..
but was a happy day!

supposedly meeting dear dear today but...
dear msg me in the afternoon saying he had to go msia..
didn't say wat time but he hasn't been replying me since bout 2 or 3+ when i told him to let me know before he left..
y can't he just leave me a msg saying he left for m'sia already?
is tt so difficult?
really dunno wat to do... :(
and now i dunno where is he..
hate tt feeling!
ROAR!

dear dear just dropped me a msg saying he's not meeting me till fri..
and dan i felt kinda upset.. :(
i think i'm becoming to be such a possessive gf that i only want him all to myself..
which means if possible...
no night training
no duty
no going out without me
no meeting whoever
no leaving me halfway for others
no meeting friends
which is kinda not possible given that i noe how popular he is with everyone..
and that he always accompanies me...
which means i can't be so selfish..
but this is just how reasonable i am turning to be..
i hate myself for feeling this way..
but maybe i'm feeling lonely and i seriously hate tt!
wat should i do?
i will still let him go with his friends, for his training, for his duties, for whoever he is meeting cause it isn't right to be suffocating him...
but how would i feel?
anyway i shld change my thoughts..
should be more generous..
:(
can i do it...?

supposedly meeting dear today after 2 days of not meeting!
needless to say, i'm excited and looking forward to it of course!
but halfway thru the day,
he said he couldn't meet me up since he has gt to send her to the airport..
why does he have to send her to the airport?
cause she has got no money to go back and she doesn't have a bag to contain all her clothes back to where she came..
what is all these shit?
couldn't she take care of herself?
maybe all these was on purpose..
who noes?
but 1 thing is for sure..
who am i to say anything?
afterall, i'm just a 3rd party..
suck thumb.. :(

but i was so hoping to spend the entire weekend with him...
now all plans are disrupted..
though i dun realli have a plan.. =X
it's always the case..



it's a sunday!
and i've been home for the weekend..
surprisingly nv went out other dan downstairs.. :)
i'm a good girl ok?!

did online shopping..
hees!!!
but time to stop for the moment liaos..
otherwise i'll go bankrupt! >.<
hopefully the loots this time round will be able to sustain my whatever cravings.. =P



it's april!
which means in bout 3 weeks or so, it'll be dear's birthday and our 1st yr anni on the same day! :)
woohoo~
time flies. it feels like just days/mths ago when we're together..
wonder wat to get him..
ahs.. but he said not to get him anything!!
i'm still thinking... :)

anyway,
i stayed home today cause tummy wasn't well!
had terrible pain after dear left in the morning..
the pain didn't subside till when i woke up at 12+..
so can say i'm better now but the pain feels like it's coming back every now and then!

dear dear is sleeping soundly beside/behind me.. :)
i guess he's really tired..
sleep tight my dear.. *muacks*