sometimes i think i'm just not the gf that baby's looking for..
i've got too many issues..
at times..
i just hope he'll not give me the cold shoulder..
it's really depressing..
it's like..
he said he's not in the mood..
but he can look perfectly fine with others and to me, i'll just get the cold shoulder..
dan i'll start to wonder what i did wrong..
shld be that i'm thinking too much bahs..
guess he just needs time alone..
but sometimes..
i just felt that i'm nothing to him..
felt like i dun exist..
this is just my own thinking..
but..
other times..
it's totally different..

hmms..
maybe it's just that i gave him too much pressure?
is it?

but whatever the case..
still love him and i'm so looking forward to his bday..
XD

went out on sat for kenglan's bday celebration..
i'm lazy to post the pic..
for the time being, the pic can be found on my facebook..
haha..
anyway, enjoyed that day with the k session..
sang quite a few 'high' songs and got really high..
haha! =)


work was alright..
i just hope time will pass faster during work.. =P
this sat is the d&d le..
i dun think i'll be buying any dress for that day bahs..
i noe that the colour theme is black but i'm really lazy to scout for black dress just for the d&d..
so i guess i'll be wearing the grey de bahs..
at least i love tt dress..
^^


today's kenny birthday..
so hereby wishing him...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
hope he enjoyed his day today.. ^^


and..
baby's birthday is coming too..
wonder wat will happen..
but i guess nothing much will happen bahs?
hoho..
=)


anyway, these few days with baby was really nice..
can i have more please? =X

hmms..
was looking thru baby's hp tt day..
dan i realise there were some missing sms..
think i'm kinda stupid cause i was searching for it at all possible places..
in the end i still couldn't find it..
but i'm glad it cannot be found! haha!!
well, at least it's something off my mind.. haha..


went party world that day..
had fun singing..
and poor mary ann lost her voice after the 1st song she sang..
and for the first time i realise that there is someone who sing even older songs dan me! ^^
something happen during the k session and mary ann and winnie was screaming..
but was really nice though..
sth that i din expect.. =)
alright..
i'll upload the pics another day when i get the rest from mary ann.. ^^


baby came in half day today..
talk to him at basement 2 before he went back to work and while i'm waiting for ellen for lunch..
accompanied baby till khatib cause he wasn't feeling well..
feeling giddy cause he din eat anything other dan 3 siew mai + 1 low mai kai..
dan he made me play metal slug along the way..
i think i played till so stupid lahs..
keep dying and baby was laughing at me..
hmpf~ say liao i play will feel so bai chi still want me play..
but ok lahs..
was fun though..
i love the moment he pulled me over and hug me while i was playing.. ^^
anyway i just love hugs.. haha.. =)
hug me more hug me more!! =X
shh...


well, i'm gonna go collect my brand new ipod nano tml!!
sent it for repair cause the click wheel wasn't working and the person couldn't repair it so they offered to change a new one for me!!
^^
lala~ no more scratches..
can't be they scratch in the exact same spot right? haha!!


and yes..
i'm proud to announce that i'm still very much addicted to yang cheng ling's 'dai wo zou'
after so long..
i'm still in love with that song..
baby say he listen till sick le but still sing to it everyday!
haha!!
hoho!!
DAI WO ZOU~
DAO YAO YUAN DE YI HOU~
DAI ZOU WO~
YI GE REN ZI ZHUAN DE JI MO~
DAI WO ZOU~

sometimes i think that i'm so hard to get along with?
i've got serious mood swing problems..
but maybe..
cause every little thing matters to me..
maybe tt's why i get mood swing easily?
is it?
i wonder if baby can stand me not..
oh well..

sometimes, at times..
i feel so unappreciated by him..
it's like..
whatever he ask me to do,
it's something that i shld..
at times he can just dump me things to do and when i nv do,
he'd say that asking me to do something is difficult or sth..
at times i tried to do but he would just think that i'm not putting in effort..
maybe that's not wat he thinks..
but what i feel is just that..
whenever it happens,
i'd try to push it aside and just try not to think bout it..
but too many times,
i dunno how much more i can take..
he might say that i think too much..
but..
try putting urself in my position..
maybe you'd feel differently..
but maybe you'd still think it's really i think too much..
oh well..
but it's realli not a gd feeling to feel unappreciated mahs..
furthermore i already give in so much..
at least i think so..
=)
kay lahs..
just want everything to be fine..
i still love him as much..
nothing's change.. ^^v

it's been some time since the last update..
well, recently met up with roger for dinner..
dinner was ok but towards the end jiu..
hmm..
we did took pics lahs..
cause he keep saying he wanna change facebook de pic..
so we took @ the station..
was ok lah.. =)


dan.. work yesterday..
after work went baby's house cause he had to be home to look after his sis de daughter..
after which, supposedly to lie down for like.. 5mins..
but both of us fell asleep till night..
hoho..
so wake up jiu had dinner liaos..
dan online looking at stuff dan send me home..
but before that we went to eat prata!!
hungry mahs..
dan cab home..
dan i was rattling on and on about some stuff in the cab lahs..
but baby put up with me..
and afterwhich i kinda regret rattling on about stuff..
cause was kinda scared baby would be angry..
but he nv.. ^^
muahaha!!
i love him so much and i just wish everything would be fine..