i've been thinking..
maybe i shld just make-up a little?
part of the reason was cause 2 of my colleague keeps 'nagging' at me..
we joke ard..
but they've been saying things like i shld go do some make up lahs..
and tt i shld do some make up lahs..
like i'm not girl enough lahs..
i'm too flat lahs..
like if i walk in front of them they wun even be looking at me lahs..
and so on lahs..
joking ard is alright for me..
but after some time when they keep saying the same thing..
kinda feel anoyed lahs..
it's not tt i detest making up..
but honestly is just plain lazy and i dunno how to lahs..
i depend alot on my mood on whether i wanna look better dan usual or just slack off..
thinking back,
light make up wouldn't hurt lahs..
but dan the tot tt if i'm going to make up,
i'll need to buy the things and so on..
furthermore..
let's say if i realli make up le..
wat will baby say?
i'm afraid tt he'll say things tt will realli make me feel like throwing everything away..
like my efforts are wasted..
you noe the feeling?
so how?
shld i go for it?
or not?

it's a boring sunday..
but i'm quite tired..
was very reluntantly cleaning up my room..
anyway,
later going for dinner at chevrons.. =)


i'm thinking wat present shld i get for baby for valentine's day..
i've got a 1 or 2 things in mind..
but i dun really noe wat to get actually..
ums..
and we're gonna celebrate valentine's day earlier cause this year it falls on chinese new year's actual day..
but i dunno wat's the plan yet..
oh well.
just have to get things ready by then..
someone wanna acc me?

baby's not feeling really well these few days..
or i shld say for some time already..
his eye became pain and itchy again today..
really dunno wat's wrong..
actually i'm kinda worried for him..
it might be really common to have itchy eye..
but seeing his eye pain and itchy so frequent is really bothering me..
i mean..
seeing him like this makes my heart pain..
haha..
just hope he'll be better bahs..

played left 4 dead 2 with baby just now...
dan he was thinking of tml...
haiz...
i'm so gonna miss baby so so much tml..
cause...
99.9% we're not gonna be meeting tml le..
well...
unless there's some surprise from baby lahs..
but..
i've learnt not to put my hopes high..
oh well..


i used to think tt for a couple, there's no need to meet everyday..
tt was until i'm with baby..
it was then tt i realise..
if you really love the other party,
you'd hope to see him/her for as long as possible..
and not meeting him for 1 day is kinda torturing..
>.<
actually after being together with baby, my thinking change alot..
and from him,
i really find myself falling so deep into it..
i'm just afraid tt some day i might need to pull myself out of it..
it will be so difficult by then..
kinda hope it wun happen..
but no one noes bout the future...
hope bahs..

i finally made up my mind on what i wan..
but!
why is it tt my parents dun really support me?
why are they doubting me?
they dun believe tt i can but i do!
they tot tt i enjoyed my work..
but the fact is tt i dun really enjoy it..
it is ok..
but i dun have the interest in it..
initially i tot i can find interest in it..
but no..
i dun find it anywhere..
but maybe they place and the people i work with makes a difference too..
but..
engineering is really not the industry tt i wanted to be in..
at least i dun see myself still in engineering few years down the road..
i wanted to do sth tt i like..
but when i told them,
their response was like somehow doubting me..
what is so great bout being a technical officer anyway?
it is a skill, yes i noe..
but i'm just not into it..
is tt enuff reason for me to switch?
somehow i just lost the confidence tt i had..
this is so so fustrating!!
GRR!

it's a new year and i've decided to change my blogskin! =)
not gonna be doing 1 cause i'm lazy and i've got no inspiration..
haha..
anyway, i just hope baby will feel better cause he's been feeling terrible these few days..
really hope he's ok..
and now, i've got runny nose! argh~
all cause i cleared my cupboard..
allergy bahs.. =)
i miss baby so much..
wonder how is he doing now..
is he feeling better?
hmms..
think i'll check how is he later bahs.. =)

it's a new year.. =)
went to marina sq with baby for the countdown.. ^^
i made a few new year resolution for him...
- to dote me more..
- to smoke less.. better still if he can really really quit it..
- to curb his bad temper..
- basically is anything that has got to do with me.. haha!! =D

things between us are ok now..
ever since tt quarrel we had recently..
i really dun wanna have any quarrel with him lahs...
ums..
i'm trying to work towards tt goal of not quarrelling..
i hope we can.. =)
baby's watching soccer at my hse nw...
i just love having him ard me.. ^^ hees...
i'm a greedy pig..
time is always nv enuff when i'm with him..
love u baby..