dear's feeling down..
i'm feeling sleepy..
but no matter wat,
i love him so much. ^^

argh!
was just expressing my tots about applying for sim.. and he seem so discouraging.. maybe was just me.. but really, he give me the feeling tt he is so discouraging.. but i noe he also just wan me to think thru carefully.. but must he phrase it tt way?

dunno y but been having pain in the stomach recently..
furthermore, dear's not in a very gd mood and so he's been getting angry easier..
i've tried to curb my temper le. but nothing seems to work..
i just hope tt he'll give me a little more attention, a little more care..
but i guess tt's kinda not very possible recently..

anyway today met kenny for dinner.
i knew he wouldn't like it but dan kenny's my friend..
and as usual, he gave me tt face..
and before i left him & his mother & relatives, he said tt i'll be meeting my dunno hu dan say dun need to care bout me..
y must he say like tt..?
am i thinking too much or wat?

and dan, work wise, i'm not very happy either..
seems like everything is not right..

=(

we quarrelled yet again..
maybe i am the unreasonable one..
maybe you're the tired one..

maybe we should...

i'm worried.. =(

i dunno wat's goin on..
we've been getting into quarrels/arguements so easily.. i dunno wat is happening..
am i the one hu caused it?
or maybe.. like one of my friend say.. maybe he went in army and became mature while i remain being the immature one.. is tt the case?
been feeling really really lousy..
or maybe.. i forgot how to actually communicate with ppl already?
i realised.. i've been bottling up whatever i feel inside me.. y can't i just let it out anymore? i noe in the past i wasn't like this.. and i was so much happier..
i guess things changed..
i'm feeling really really upset..
being emotional?

and dan, i came home to find my room being invaded AGAIN! i've only got my bed back for 1 wk and now it's gone again.. i wonder this time how long will it be.. will it break the 3mths record? but i'm really irritated with it already!! + today i'm not in a gd mood. fuck.

and lastly, i came home and found out tt my father injured his eye during work. i hear le so heart pain.. i wonder how is he cause when i came home he was already sleeping.. but i can see tears at the corner of his eye. i hope it's not serious.. but mummy say tt the metal thingy which hurt him, hurt his 'yan mo'.. argh!! everything's not alright..

oh.. i just found out tt my grandparents were here cause they send my father home. so maybe i can't realli be upset or wat bahs...? i dunno lah..

i wanna SHOUT! i wanna shout out LOUD!

i wanna noe wat's wrong with me..