i'm hungry... zzz.. anyone willing to cook for me ma..? ^^

dear went in already.. =(
it's gonna be another wk before i can see him? but this i have to get use to.. lols..

anyway, dear changed the car le.. frm nissan sunny to honda jazz.. and the first day he got the car, he changed the sports rim, the antenna & the visor.. -.-" supposedly is his mother's car la.. but turns out machiam like his car like tt.. oh well..

finally had my mac breakfast le.. yummy~ been so long since i last ate it.. and esp long since the last time ate with dear.. remember last time used to pon sch and dan went over to the mac infront of shaw.. haha.. good times.. ^^

well, i'm getting irritated so easily these few days.. and come to think of it, it's been more dan 2 mths since i last slept on my bed.. zzz.. been slping on the floor for these past 2 mths or so.. but like nobody's business.. zzz.. i wan my bed back! my rm machiam not my rm like tt.. somehow, the tot of moving out cross my mind.. haiz...

anyway, gonna work tml.. i dun wanna work.. somehow i wanna quit.. but... later tio niam... i'm thinking of wat to study.. might go study bah? see how it goes.. =)

and lastly, i wanna go shopping!!




somehow, i'm feeling so so.. out.. somehow feel so unwanted.. so left out.. so so so many negative tots.. argh~

i'm sad...
=(


m a y b e i ' m j u s t s e l f i s h o r w a t e v e r l a . .
b u t i w u n c h a n g e m y s e l f j u s t b e c a u s e u d u n l i k e i t o r w a t .
t h i s i s m e . l i k e i t o r n o t i s u p t o u .
y o u s h o u l d h a v e k n o w n t t i w u n a c t u a l l y c h a n g e s i n c e a l o n g t i m e a g o .

I AM SO DAMN BLOODY PISSED! F*CK OFF!!

hmm.. let's see.. i've been working for ard 3mths already. basically work is alright lah. other dan at times i'll get abit irritated bah.. cuz 1 of my colleague.. she keeps asking me to do things.. argh! but hai hao.. i can get over it easily. other dan tt, there's this another thing which really pissed me off. but, shall be kept in my heart. haha!! =P


and dan there's the thing about the ward. got a scolding from them once. and it really isn't my fault lor. they were the ones who nv follow instructions mah. dan say is our fault. zzz..


but anyway, hope everything will be better.. please please please.. >.<

these few days been meeting dear..


yesterday he came over and bring me out for dinner @ imm. =) it just feels so nice..


today in the morning met him for breakfast. but this time includes his parents. dan went over to his hse. he pack his things and dan slept for awhile while i play his laptop. dan his parents drove us to pasir ris.. he saw me off to the station and tt's the last time i see him le..


dear's sick.. just hope he'll be better bah.. :)


anyway, will be looking forward to nx wk when he books out. ^^V

met dear today. =) finally can go out with him. ^^ he brought me to this place.. it was behind the indoor stadium. it was really nice lah. food also not bad. quite windy also. ^^ took quite a few pic over there..



dear dear looking blur.. =)



me me me!!



our drinks. Esprit Ice Lemon Tea



dear and me



did he bully me?



dear and me.. again.. =)


before we left the place, we saw jellyfish in the water!! my first time seeing a real jellyfish! so i had to take pic of it. =P



jellyfish in the waters!!


after tt we went walk walk.. dan went parkway parade there to play pool. and i lost all of it. -.-" and supposedly we were supposed to go eat cheesecake de.. but dan.. cause my tummy bu zhen qi.. having pain on and off. so in the we just went home.. went by ecp. and there's this point where along expressway, 3 ppl actually ran across the expressway! and we were shocked la! cuz if we were any faster or they were any slower, we wouuld have knocked into them le! and dear was like fuming mad. so i had to calm him down. and dan, along aye, there's 2 accident. 1 involving 3 cars if i'm nt wrong, and the other one i dunno involve how many car but all i noe is tt the car was in a VERY bad shape.


home le, dear came to my place to sit. dan left afterwards. but somehow dun feel like letting him go.. =(


abyway i enjoyed myself today! ^^

i received my present from dear. =) he insisted me to go his hse to collect it.. zzz.. so i went over to his house after work on sat and went up to his rm to collect it. feels so weird to go his house without him. hmm.. so i went into his rm and opened his drawer. saw my present, a creative zen stone plus. actually the present realli doesn't come as a surprise but it's the message he recorded inside. well, i heard the msg and i teared. but it's ok. i noe he is sad tt he isn't here with me too. =)


anyway, the best thing is.. he's booking out on wed! means i can see him frm wed till sun. provided i can see him everyday. =X


but in the mean time, i guess wat i can do would be to...

COUNTDOWN!

when the clock strikes 12midnight, it's our 3yr anniversary! and yet, he isn't here to celebrate. oh well.. just too bad bah.. but nvm..


HAPPY ANNIVERSARY DEAR~

it was mr benjamin's bdae on the 30th. =) fen and me met him for dinner at city hall after work. got him a billabong de polo tee. but the cutting is bigger sia~ took us realli long to decide wat to eat and finally, decided on hong kong cafe. =) took some pic.. but, i've decided to only show the bdae boy.. so...



ta-dah! the bdae boy, benjamin.


well, gave him the present.. and peifen was like.. er.. ok lah.. she dunno how to bluff. cuz she kept smiling when she wanted ben to take the present from her bag without him knowing.. but nvm.. i think the surprise dun seem like a surprise but the thing is we enjoy ourselves rite? =) ehs.. i hope tt the bdae boy did la..
he send me home after tt.. er.. somehow i got the feeling tt he dun realli wanna send me home.. haha.. but, it's ok lah.. if he din send me home i'll just go home myself lor. ^^ but it's been realli long since i last saw him. he looks the same on the outside. but on the inside, only he noes the best. smile yea?


today, after work met up with carlsson. sat at starbucks and he let me watch transformer.. ^^ dan went back office at 6:30pm cuz i forgot to take sth.. lucky i was just at ttsh's starbucks lazing ard.. haha.. but when i went back, guess my colleagues were rather shocked. haha.. =P after tt went burger king for dinner with carlsson. guess he's feeling really down. ehs.. walked ard novena sq and dan headed home. watched fantastic 4: the rise of the silver surfer on the mrt. but onli managed to watch the 1st 20mins or so nia~


anyway, i'm home. counting down to the day dear will be booking out. and i guess i'm most probably goin to look forward to his calls every day. ^^ hope things are fine for him in tekong.