cried myself to sleep last night or shld i say morning cause it was 5.30am the last time i saw the time..
cried myself to sleep cause i saw sth which i probably shouldn't..
woke up in the morning still feeling affected though dear was beside me, sayang-ing me..
he had a terrible hangover and i couldn't just leave him alone..
but i could still feel the impact it had on me..
actually i saw 2 things..
1 of which was msges between him and another girl..
the other was sth he told his friend which he wasn't going to tell me.. at least not anytime soon...
even though dear did explain to me just now bout the msg with the girl, i dunno if i can fully believe it cause the msges seems... i dunno..
would a guy call another girl dear just because the girl is feeling lonely? probably?
would a guy tell the girl that he still like her when telling me that he is just pacifying her? probably?
but i couldn't not let it affect me.. it's not tt i want to..
but i just got affected..
he has the time to msg the girl but not his own girl..
i couldn't see why..
and dan suddenly, i'm not sure how much i could trust..
i noe i shld have trusted him.. i could feel he loves me..
but at times or maybe this time ard, because of all those things... i couldn't really do it.. much as i want to..
i guess my thoughts are clouded at the moment..
hoping that i could get past all of these and i hope that he will be alright..
impt stuffs he shld be telling me, he didn't..
now what should i do?
am i not important enuff? though he says he dun wan me to be worried.. wouldn't i be even more worried if he told me afterwards?
i just dunno what is he thinking about!
just hope everything.. and i mean everything will be fine.. *prays*

dear came back to my hse but drunk! -.-"
all because of vodka..
 anyway, he's fallen asleep so i guess i shld go slp too!

argh!

i hate it when dear goes clubbing and forgot all about me.. so maybe he can't be keep on msg-ing when he's enjoying but at the very least, remember to come back to me? esp since i'm waiting for him to tell me wat is his plan for after clubbing.. whether is it to come back to my place or to go back camp! he noes he shld be telling me his plan but till now i hear nth. tried whatsapping him but still, nth!

maybe i'm whinning & whiney but still, i can't help it! at least let me have tt bloody ans first mah! and now i'm just sitting ard waiting for him to reply. dun dare to go slp cause i'm afraid i wun hear any phone calls if i really fall asleep! argh!

i think i'm whining till i wanna breakdown for some unknown reasons.. but i noe pretty well that i dun like to be left alone.. the kinda feeling is sucky.. :(

my precious has been legally married! :)
solemnization was held at Keppel Bay's Peony Jade Restaurant on Christmas day itself.
my best wishes to you for a blissful marriage..
*hugs*