*sObx*
now is a brand new day.. Wednesday. yesterday was realli bad. i told dear that i nt those kinda can always meet my stead de ren.. he was pretty upset. dan met him after my training and guess wat? at first we were alrite I guess.. dan towards the MRT station, he ask mi the question. he ask mi y i cannot always meet my stead de.. dan.. i realli dunno how to say.. all i noe was that i was having difficulty telling him how i realli feel.. he asked mi a lot of questions but all i could realli reply him was 'Yes, No' i know that he was rather pissed off lor.. but dan hor.. haix.. i realli dunno how to tell him lah!dan at times i felt rather pissed off with him oso.. i mean.. mostly i noe is my fault, i'm wrong.. but.. when he ask me to choose the days i wanna meet him and other dan the days i state, he wun meet me.. but.. the thing is tt... meeting someone is nt like working.. it has no fixed schedule!! >.< but the way he say it.. it seems sth that shld be done systematically or watever.. get wat i mean? haix. dan he accompanied me home.. at the overhead bridge there, cuz of wat he say, i nearly cried.. but i stop myself.. and i think dear was too upset with me yesterday that somehow, i think he oso abit gonna drop tears liaox.. but dan hor.. dunno la.. i noe he is realli upset.. but dan.. haix.. i dunno how to say la.. i wan him to noe how i realli feel.. but i dunno how to let him noe how i realli feel.. it sux.. and in the end, he gave me some time to think bout the prob.. but.. haix.. i juz need him to understand how i realli feel.. but how to tell him? i'm facing this prob in almost all of my past relationship.. i'm trying to overcome myself.. it's juz tt no one understands.. argh! i dun understand one thing.. y must i always meet my stead leh? i mean.. y must everytime meet? i juz dun understand.. maybe, not maybe.. i'm nt the average type of gers? dun use their average on me.. >.< haix.. hack.. no one understands.. i oso dunno how to let them noe.. =(
to end it off, i'm a weirdo.. juz let me be..? sorrie dear..