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looking back on the 3 years I had in rp, can say tt i really enjoyed myself.. =) throughout the years, there's a lot of ups and downs.. but, that's wat creates the memories i had in rp...


Year 1: TN0404
first day of sch was scary. i was late for sch cuz yonghua was late.. -.-" step into the class, i see new faces.. faces which i had never seen before.. not even 1 of them i knew. found my grp and settled down. got to know weinan.. at first i tot he kinda look like the guy from malaysia i was so into.. but only weinan's bigger in size and age.. haa.. dan, the girls from the grp in front of me started introducing themselves.. and that's how we got to know each other. initially, was on good terms with cherilyn. cuz we're in the same grp most of the time.. along with joulbert, thomas and laiheng. still remembered we(cherilyn, bert, thomas and me) used to chat on msn even though we're in the same grp. LOL. dan started to know huimin. can say that at tt time we were also quite close. but dan, there was once, sth happen and dan we weren't close anymore. yup, dan me and peifen would stick together and huimin and cherilyn would be with bert, thomas, wee seen and meng dan.. that was their grp tt time. true, i felt left out at the beginning but got used to it later on. being with peifen was fun.. we always had our share of laughter. =) and at tt time, i joined volleyball and got to noe elwin. skipped sch afew times with him and before long, we were together. volleyball was tough. with all the trainings and so on.. sure there were happy times and unhappy times. when i felt so outcasted tt i din noe wat is it tt i did to end up like tt.. and dan there were also times when i managed to serve the ball over.. at tt point of time, it was like an achievement to me cuz i nv seem to be able to serve the ball over. and a simple thing like tt can make me happy for the rest of the day. yup. and tt year was also the year i went to sch with limay and siling. oh.. and of cuz, me and limay also had our quarrels. but i nv noe how they started. but it's ok. =) and tt year, i eyed on fangliang. LOL.


Year 2
sem 1: SM0107
changed class. initially when i see the class list, i'm like.. omg! y? cause being in the same class as huimin.. haa.. cuz year 1 for dunno wat reason we weren't as gd so being in the same class with her again, i'm not sure whether we can still be like wat we used to be. went for lunch break with cherilyn, peifen and huimin. tt time, things was starting to look gd.. made new friends. and i can say tt this is the only class where i really enjoyed myself. it's a very fun class and there isn't much stress in it. can say tt it's kinda relaxed. =) me and huimin stuck together often. dan, got to noe kenny.. he's a really nice guy.. =) being with him is really fun.. he's like.. nv short of jokes or things tt make u luff.. we got closer. and i noe when i've got unhappy things, i can always look for him.. somemore.. he is fangliang's fren.. LOL.. =) but anyway, tt was the happiest time.. =D


sem 2: SM0305
surprisingly, got into the same class as fangliang. was over the moon when i knew tt.. somemore, first day of lesson same team as him. and tt day, i got to noe benjamin and jonathan. this class isn't bad.. there are also happy moments. but there's lesser happenings.. but still, i got into the same class as huimin. quite unbelievable cuz almost everyone split le.. haha.. but still there's minority bah.. went for lunch with sm0107 peeps and sometimes, peifen and cherilyn would join us. started to skip more lesson.. couldn't really bother bout my results. as long as i passed, it's gd enuff. =X days got by quite fast. and me and huimin becomes gd fren. but, there's sth.. when i tried telling her my xin shi, she got the dun care look. so i nv really tell her much.. haha.. sorrie. but tt's how i feel.. =) still gd fren though..
Year 3
sem 1: W35G
rp changed campus. from tanglin campus to the current woodlands campus. hmm.. this class.. wasn't as gd.. dunno y, couldn't really click with peeps in my class except for a few.. haha.. and yes, still in the same class with huimin.. went for lunch with jeffrey, kenny, bert, cherilyn and peifen. this is our new grp. i like this grp alot. we went out more on a regular basis. and we had fun most of the time. =) the feeling is nice. cause, for me, it's been so long since i last enjoyed myself in a grp. and i really hope things will keep staying this way.. but...
sem 2: E35G
a new class again, new friends. but, yup! still together with huimin. =) actually i was really glad tt we were in the same class.. together for 3 years. it's something i look forward to everytime we change class. this new class was still ok. but i became more quiet.. everything was fine until 1 day.. i noe which day it is, but i wun say when.. among our grp, we quarrelled. started out from 1 incident.. dan i got no mood for lesson and i left just before 3rd meeting start. i was so upset and i hid in the library. not really hid but stayed there with kenny. we were talking and msn-ing at the same time. and dan, i had a conversation with huimin over msn. but things got ugly. usually kenny would be the one fuming mad.. but this time ard, he tried im-ing calmly while i was fuming mad beside him. he wouldn't let me replied. cuz i guess if i really replied, i would have said sth harsh. we decided to stay back to sort things out. went back class after lesson end and our grp de peeps were all gathered in my class. all except for peifen. so we started talking.. and i teared while saying stuff halfway. basically cuz i couldn't control myself. i tried but i can't hold back the tears. and dan, huimin said sth and left the class in anger or watever. being the violent kenny, he rushed out but huimin was gone. first time i see kenny so mad.. jeffrey told us what ppl were saying behind me.. i dun care wat they wanna say behind me.. it's not nice stuff but i dun care. over the phone when huimin was talking to kenny, i overheard wat she said. i just dunno y she would think tt way. cuz i nv tot tt way. in the end, me, kenny and bert stayed back to talk while cherilyn and jeffrey went cwp to find huimin. things wasn't solved. nth is. the call at night might seem to have settled it. but nope. not much. and from then on, the grp officially split into 2. normally, when we go for breaks, we would go as a grp. but, tt point of time, they went for theirs. we were not asked. so be it. so kenny, peifen and me became one of the grp and the rest is another grp. it's hard for me to accept tt but i still had to. we went for our ktv sessions quite regularly. lols. but when fyp came, we wouldn't noe how to face it. our fyp team wasn't on much talking terms. i did try to pull the gap closer but i couldn't do it on my own. when the other party doesn't wanna budge, there's nth to help. and from tt time on, i skipped lesson. skipped till cannot skip still skip. results drop. and i've got totally no mood for lesson. we were like.. some strangers. wat to do? we are still not talking now, but at the very least we still smile when we see each other. maybe the problem just lies with me bah? i noe the feeling of being outcasted and i hate it. but y? y must it be me? now, i can stop thinking bout it le.. over liao. but if i were to choose, i would rather end my poly life happily...




p/s: sorry if offended anyone. but this is how i feel. close the browser if u dun wanna read.