Wednesday, February 11, 2009 ♥
my feelings.. ♥ 9:16 PM
was supposed to reach home ard 8pm after dinner with baby at my hse here..
but..
i just dun feel like going home early..
under my block,
me : wat time you want to go home?
him: why?
me : want to go blow wind?
him: where? *starts blowing wind at me* enough?
me : not enough
****** above dialogue is direct translation from mandarin ******
and after tt, there's no reply..
so i just said nvm.. go home bah..
along the corridoor, he ask mi y i look so sian..
told him nth but well, honestly, just sian bahs..
he see me till the staircase and well,
although i walked down the stairs, i really dread the feeling of going home..
so i stood outside with my house keys and decided to not go in..
called kenny and chat with him..
stayed out till around 9pm before going home..
actually i'm really unhappy..
ah!!
somehow, i sense that baby's not right..
there seems to be something that is bothering him but he just doesn't seem to say..
i just hope that if he's unhappy with something, he can share it with me..
at least if it's something that i did that he is unhappy about,
i can try to change or anything so that it wun happen again mahs..
but..
he'd rather keep it to himself..
is it that i'm not worth it to share with..?
or wat?
anyway, i think if baby sees this entry, he's so going to be unhappy cause i din go home.. but.. i just dun feel like going home early and well, he wants to go home early cause it takes quite some time for him to reach home and well, he's working the next day. so i just kept quiet..
maybe cause i just wanna spend more time with baby bahs..
baby, sorry..