Wednesday, June 16, 2010 ♥
if you were me ♥ 7:20 PM
I dun understand why..
Is it I'm asking too much?
He nv offers to come look for me..
And even if he comes over,
It will just sounds like he's being forced to..
Sometimes I feel like asking him..
Can't he just come over just for me..
Without me asking?
Like voluntarily?
Sure I really love him lots..
But..
Does he feel the same?
At times I will feel as though I dun mean anything to him..
I'm nt important at all when you weigh me against everything else..
Why am I feeling this way?
Why must I be feeling this way?
Why don't I feel that I'm really loved?
It hurts to feel that I'm only a friend instead of his gf..
Why?
Is it my doing?
Like wat fen, carlsson and even the MIA kenny says..
Is this karma?
For the way I treat *****?
Somehow I believe this is karma..
But do I really deserve all these?
All that I'm feeling?
Yes yes..
I'm super emotional..
But it only started when I got together with baby..
Before tt,
I wun feel this way..
Yes yes..
At times I'm quite a drama queen..
But tt only happens when I'm with friends..
And it was all a joke..
So..
Am I thinking too much when I feel all these?
When I feel that I'm worthless..
When I feel that even baby's friends comes first compared to me..
Or is it plainly me thinking too much..
Sure..
Ppl will feel tt I'm thinking too much..
But..
If you're me.
Will you still say the same thing?
If you're me...
Have you ever imagined if you're me...
How would you feel...
If we switch places..
Would you still feel the same..
I'm nt sure wat I'm worth already..
When I really hope you're here with me,
You weren't there..
I'd get all kinds of excuse..
Even though hoe much I prayed for you to be here..
Nth happens..
Really feel like breaking down..
I tried to hold back..
But I am seriously nt sure how long more I can endure..
I hope things will get better one day..
I hope I can endure till the day...
:(