feeling upset..
quarreled cause of 2 miss call.
nv contact till now..
it's not my fault..
if you were to hear the tone that you used to talk to me,
you'd be even more pissed off dan me..
and it was just 2 missed call..
must u say till like i offended you so much?
can't you control your temper? y must you be so vulgar towards me?
aren't i your gf whom you shld be treating well instead of all those vulgarities?
seriously i dunno where i stand..
does talking to me piss u off so much?
y do i feel so small when i'm with you?
y is it that you'd listen to friends rather dan to me?
are they more important to you?
majority of the time, you'd never bother to contact me unless u nid to ask me sth, nid me to help u do things..
you'd ignore me if i din contact you all the way till end of the day..
yes, you'd still contact me at the end of the day before you go bed..
but most of the time it lasted for less dan 5mins..
sunday is your slping day..
but if friends ask u out, you're ok with it..
but not me.. you'd just tell me you wan to slp..
sometimes i wonder wat you are doing on sunday..
dun blame me for thinking so much..
cause i already dun feel tt i mean anything to you..
do i? seriously, do i?
have you put urself in my shoes and spare a tot bout me?
of the many things that i told you,
is there something that you've done for me?
something that you put urself in my shoe and tried to see things from my point of view.. tried to help me..?
i dun wan to always tear or have the urge to tear whenever i think bout our r/s or whenever ppl ask me bout our r/s..
i noe we can't compare..
but whenever i see ppl's bf came specially to fetch/pick their gfs, i feel happy for them.. and then i think about myself..
at times i feel like i'm single rather dan attached..
i'm tired.. tired from giving in.. tired from being at the receiving end of those short tempered-ness.. tired from always hoping/wishing for sth and it never came..
i realli wan to know and i hope you will think it carefully..
do you treat all your previous the same way you treat me?
if you come to realise that you treat them better dan how things are between us now, i'd tell you that the ans is very clear that they mean more to you dan wat i am to you..
maybe we should reconsider..
but if you are saying that it's all the same, dan let me tell you, i'm not them.. each of us have different character, different needs..
and dan, let me ask you again..
if.. one day i'm no longer around..
will you miss me? will you long for me to be there beside you?


i'm lost.
maybe i'm asking for too much. am i?