Monday, June 13, 2011 ♥
bits and pieces ♥ 6:44 PM
sometimes i feel like i'm a kid..
i just really wanna meet baby..
yes i noe i shldn't be sulking cause he is going to study afterall..
but, when u asked me if i wan to come and dan u sound as if u dun wan me to be there afterwards..
i realli feel lousy..
lousy cause i was REALLY hoping to be meeting you but..
i guess i should have known better dan to put my hopes high..
i should have known all along that my hopes burst into tiny tiny fragments everytime/most of the time..
isn't this so since we got together 2 yrs ago?
i guess sometimes it's the way we all say things..
seems like after so long, you still dun really noe how to talk to me..
you dunno how to say it to me in a way whereby i wouldn't feel upset, feel lousy, feel like a rubbish!
and dan,
my mood is spoilt..
sometimes, or rather, most of the time, i feel like i'm alone..
i actually feel lonely..
no one realli understands..
no one believes that I am lonely anyway..
but the loneliness is eating into me..
:(
maybe it's my fault for wanting to meet you..
maybe it's my fault for not being understanding..
maybe it's just my fault..
i'm just not the independent type of person which you might hope that I am..
NO! no! no..