was having potluck last sunday at ellen's hse..
fun fun fun!!
saw a quite aggressive hamster..
:)


monday and tuesday was stressful for me!!
chalotte was on leave and all her travel stuffs i have to take over..
though she settled all, but there are still 1 or 2 last min things..
and cause i have nv done it before..
so was abit struggling.. :P
but now it's finishing up soon.. :)
and that binnie is super irritating..
sometimes she is just so inconsiderate..
really wonder why..
and the things she says..
sometimes is not accurate at all but when u try to explain or sth, she will still just insist she is right.
super irritated by her today..
wonder how long more i can stand her..


was having headache towards the end of the day..
was really having the urge to meet baby probably for dinner or sth..
but ended up he had to stay back and work OT..
so i went JP alone instead..
sometimes i really just wanna meet baby but he just couldn't make it..
it's not like it is his fault cause he was working..
i noe i can't blame him for tt but..
just wanna spend more time together..
it's like..
mon, wed & fri he'll be having lessons..
i wouldn't mind going over to meet him after his lesson but dan sometimes he would say tt it's too late even though it was a friday when i asked..
tue and thurs he's practically working OT..
even though sat is considered our day,
but by the time we meet would be already ard afternoon bout 4+
and sun he'll be meeting his grp to either study or do project..
somehow it goes back to how we were in the past where i only have 1 day to really meet him..
but dan again, i noe he is doing sch stuffs and work..
i can't blame him for tt..
i guess i can only blame myself..
why do i need to much attention?
why can't i just do things alone?
why must i be dependent on anyone?
but i have been like this for all these years..
how can i change?
on the plus side, i am going home earlier, ironing the clothes more frequently..
i guess tt's the only consolation prize for all these..
oh well..