all that you are going through now,
not that i dun understand..
I DO!
but do you understand how i feel?
no!
you dun understand how i feel..
you dun understand how everything means to me..
you dun understand at all..
do you?
i dun wan to be breaking down every now and then again..
frankly speaking,
if you were me,
where do you think u stand in my heart?
things you say and the things you do is different.
you'd say i mean alot to you..
sorry but i dun feel it..
you'd say that you understand..
sorry but i dun feel it either!
tell me!
why is it that everytime i'm with you, i get upset..
i kept thinking if we shld ever get back together in the first place.
not that i want to think that way..
i realli dun..
but everytime things turn out the other way.
seriously i dun feel much effort from you already..
tell me where is the effort?
i closed my heart once when i decided to end the relationship..
you asked me for a chance..
i could see then you did changed..
i gave you the chance you wanted..
i opened my heart once again..
now, what did i get?
seriously!
i dun feel that i'm important to you..
important to you only when you need me to do sth..
WHERE AM I STANDING IN YOUR HEART?
STANDING? SQUATTING? HIDING?
IS TT WHY YOU CAN'T SEE ME?
you might think that i'm being unreasonable or whatever..
but you realli dun understand my feelings..
i had enough of being emotional/upset every couple of days..
you dun understand what i'm going through in this relationship..
or should we just re-evaluate and see if we shld be together?
i'm not the independent kinda girl..
i rely alot on people..
i rely alot on the promises made,
i rely on the hopes that i have..
but with you, i've learnt to not have any hopes..
cause majority of the time,
my hopes are dashed..
but i still carry hope sometimes, thinking that this time round, things will be different..
but i dun see much now..
maybe if you see this,
you'd think that i dun understand you, that i'm misunderstanding you.
PUT URSELF IN MY SHOE!!
CAN YOU SEE WHY I AM SO UPSET?
i'm not ur priority..
am i even supposed to be in the first place!?