Saturday, October 08, 2016 ♥
emo rants ♥ 3:26 AM
been trying to get over K but it wasn't easy cause even after so long, he's still lingering in my mind.
and guess what?
i saw a pic of them with a pair of ring under the pic.
so i guess they are gonna tie the knot or sth soon.
im happy he found someone he wants to spend his remaining life with..
but then again, i can't help but hope everything fails.
i noe im not right for thinking that way but still,
can't help it..
and..
recently some doubts have been casted upon H.
i asked him and he was upset at me for not trusting him totally.
i guess deep down inside me, i already prepared for the worse when i asked him..
but still,
it wasn't tt i dun trust him..
but there were too many similar coincidence which it's hard for me to ignore..
but since he said tt it wasnt him, i trust him.
but still, things ended up in a way where we might no longer talk anymore..
i hope he could have seen it from my point of view, that i just wanted him to tell me the honest ans..
i'll believe him unconditionally.
but why must he feel the need to end things?
argh!
maybe it's just me, maybe it's my karma or whatever you wanna call it..
maybe i'm just being stupid.
i just really wanna hole up somewhere where people wun be able to find me..
or maybe just end everything once and for all.
maybe no one bothers. doesn't matter. cause the ones i really wanted all decided that i should be alone.
somehow, i dunno who to trust, what to trust..
and i think my trust issues are coming back with it being bigger dan it was before..