Sunday, June 09, 2019 ♥
extra extra ♥ 9:44 PM
sometimes i feel like im an extra.
you noe? when he miss me, he finds me..
otherwise, i feel like im cast aside.
i noe the situation we are in, and i was the one who wanted to stay like this
probably this is all my fault. probably im just hoping for sth that will never happen.
he says he has 2. but why dont i get a dinner or msges or i dunno? stuffs..
ive kept all my unhappiness inside me.
ive tried not to say anything even though i really wan to.
ive given him space, time and everything.
but why do i feel like he's taking it for granted.
didnt he dislike being taken for granted? shouldnt he have known how it felt like?
and yet, why?
maybe im thinking too much.
maybe i didnt put myself in his shoe..
has he put himself in my shoe?
maybe it's karma.
maybe it's a lot of unexplainable things.
H says i should noe that im not his gf.
i shld remember this.
i did.
and yet..
i noe im stupid, im a fool perhaps.
but i noe, my heart wants him so bad.
so bad that im willing to be like this just to hope for sth that might or might not happen.
why?
i feel like crying so much.
and yet, deep down i noe it's probably not worth it.
but still, tears is on the edge.